Food Tramp

Thanks to streaming television, I got hooked on a TV drama, watching one episode after another. Eventually I tired of the main character. She slept with almost anyone, for any reason. Sad? She would sleep with someone. Angry? Sleep with someone. Hurt? Sleep with someone... It disgusted me. What a tramp! Couldn't she have a meaningful relationship? She just used men.

Then it dawned on me, her relationship with men was comparable (in some ways) to my relationship with food. Sad? I eat. Angry? I eat. Hurt? I eat.

She and I are trying to fill a void. She uses men. I use food.

So, I put a sign on my fridge: "Don't be a Food Tramp."

Playtime!

How does the saying go? "All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy." Or something like that. Well, I need more play. 

I read the book Play: How It Shapes the Brain, Opens the Imagination, and Invigorates the Soul, by Stuart Brown. He submits that the opposite of play is not work; it's depression. That was a new concept to me. Surely, if I'm not playing then I must be working, right? But he points out that work and play are not enemies. We can make work playful by finding the fun. And we can work harder if our lives include play.

For several months I've battled depression, again. I've puzzled over that, since my depression decreased dramatically when I gave up refined sugar twelve years ago! Why was it back? I think in part due to the emotional "demons" I am working through, but now I realize the lack of play certainly "plays" a part.

I made a list of activities I enjoyed as a child. 

• hula hoop (I was the unofficial champion while in the sixth grade.)
• hopscotch
• swinging
• marbles
• coloring
• roller skating (I used to have the old metal kind that clamped to my saddle shoes, and wore the "key" dangling on a shoestring around my neck.)
• tether ball
• hide-and-seek
• kick the can
• pretending to travel (I still have my mother's alligator cosmetic case I used as my "luggage.")
• pretending to be the Romper Room lady 
• pretending to be the weather person on TV (That was back in the day when they drew the clouds and sun on the big map.)

The challenge is to recapture those activities, or find other recreation that gives the same sensation or satisfaction. For instance, rather than playing hide-and-seek, I could go on an outing to seek out hidden treasures in my community, or go on a video scavenger hunt.

But the biggest challenge is to tell my adult task-oriented self to walk away (or run!) from the to-do lists and go play.

New title.

In 2011 I mainly focused on healthy eating and even though I lost weight during that year, I realized I was still treating the symptom (my weight) rather than the cause (emotional issues). I am convinced that weight will always return unless the core issues are addressed and dealt with (see post: "Give Me This Mountain").

In facing my demons I realized I was out of balance. I had focused mainly on healthy eating, but good health requires a spiritual, mental, physical, emotional, social, and environmental balance.

Thus the new title for my blog: My Healthy Eating Living Challenge.